..Live like you were dying..

He said I was in my early forties (edit:mid twenties)
with a lot of life before me
when a moment came that stopped me on a dime
and I spent most of the next days
looking at the x-rays
Talking bout the options
and talking bout sweet time
I asked him when it sank in
that this might really be the real end
how's it hit you when you get that kinda news
man what'd you do

and he said
I went sky diving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named fumanchu
and I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
and I gave forgiveness I'd been denying
and he said someday I hope you get the chance
to live like you were dying.

He said I was finally the husband (edit: wife/girlfriend)
that most the time I wasn't
and I became a friend a friend would like to have
and all the sudden going fishing
wasn't such an imposition
and I went three times that year I lost my dad
well I finally read the good book
and I took a good long hard look
at what I'd do if I could do it all again

and then
I went sky diving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named fumanchu
and I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
and I gave forgiveness I'd been denying
and he said someday I hope you get the chance
to live like you were dying.

Like tomorrow was a gift and you got eternity to think about
what'd you do with it what did you do with it
what did I do with it
what would I do with it?

Sky diving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named fumanchu
and then I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
and I watched an eagle as it was flying
and he said someday I hope you get the chance
to live like you were dying.

..Letters to Mr X..

Dear Mr X

When they look at you and me, they think we’re crazy. They think there’s nothing of substance between us. That doesn’t bother me. Because they don’t..

..feel the love in your touch when your hand rests on my cheek,
..hear the tears in your voice when you tell me no one has ever known you the way I do,
..see the humility on your face when you’ve just opened your birthday gift,
..know of the ring you put on my finger as a symbol of your love,
..appreciate our nightly shower rituals or our morning cuddle sessions,
..get a glimmer at the flutter in our hearts when my neck fits so perfectly in the crook of your neck,
..read the list you wrote me on “Why we fit” (my favorite lines are ‘you read me so well’, ‘I love to look at you when you don’t know’ and ‘you inspire me with your beauty, your talents and your creativity. I love it when you sing to me, scratch my back and put me to sleep’).

More importantly, they don’t want to believe we are for each other.

It astounds me how we are both fighting like a couple of banshees on the verge of walking out on each other and two seconds later we’re rolling around in bed laughing like loons.

It befuddles me how we both don’t really know the EXACT reason we’re together but we put up with more crap than we ever have, and we still ARE together.

It inspires me how we have deep conversations and know each others thoughts on such a base level, how we vibe the same way off the same people, how we feel about certain matters.

I love you.

Ms. X

Saturday 01 11 08

This is what I was SUPPOSED to be doing on Saturday..


Instead, because MM had to go to Kuantan to pick up some spare parts for his bus, I got dragged into doing this. 5 hours of driving total. Grumpy & sick bus driver. Grumpy & sick bus conductor. 'Sunset' on Teluk Cempedak.


MM: See baby, I brought you all the way to Kuantan to see the sunset.
Me: -.- Dude, the sunset is behind us, and you came here to pick up spare parts, don't pretend.
MM: *shy* At least it sounds romantic!
Me: >.<

Some might say, So NOT worth it.
I say, Let's Do It AGAIN!