Dear Marlboro Man..

I'll hold your hands and jump,
I'll go into the murky depths with you and with no life jacket,
You only have to ask.

I'll give you the moon on a platter,
I'll promise you the world,
You only have to ask.

I'll catch you if you fall,
I'll bungee off the highest building,
You only have to ask.

I'll Party like a Rockstar,
I'll be your very own Nikki,
You only have to ask.

I'll bear your offspring,
I'll carry your name,
You only have to ask.

Smack my butt and call me Nikki..

22nd of February. (its always good to plan ahead)

Predicted mood: Raging

Predicted attitude: Spoiling for a fight

Planned attire: Ass-kicking red

Predicted scene: In the man's office

Invited guests: 3 dicks with no brains

Predicted outcome for all: Free fireworks show Come one, come all. Stand by and watch as the simmering Mountains of Dramaland heave their last breath and erupt for all to see..

Predicted outcome for me: Escorted exit Ladies and gentlemen, Drama Mama has left the building..

D-Day will come. Nobody messes with the people I care about without repercussions. It's the final countdown.

..Taking Chances..

You don't know about my past, and
I don't have a future figured out.
And maybe this is going too fast.
And maybe it's not meant to last,

But what do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say?

Discovery Channel killed my high..

Well let's see.. I had this happy trippy all's well in my world buttterflies and bunnies and rainbows and unicorns blog all typed up.. And lo and behold,the shit hit the fan.. Boy did it hit and in a BIG way too..

I've made a few discoveries, both professionally AND personally so talk about a double bang (yes I still can't stop with the tongue in cheek sexual innuendos. just deal with it).

I understand politics. I truly do. I understand that you will NEVER escape it too. And I can sorta deal with that. HOWEVER *pauses for big Buddha breaths to calm self down* when it FREAKING.BECOMES.PERSONAL then that's a whole different ballgame. I have a strict code of principles in this matter and I WILL DO WHAT NEEDS TO BE DONE if I get pushed to the limit.

Unfortunately, I'm at that limit already. And it saddens me to do what i have to, but i'm sticking to my decision. Too late and no turning back. You on the other hand, better look over your shoulder you imbecile because on a day when i'm particularly vengeful... i'll just leave it at that.. Its sad that because of a couple of people's fear of inadequacy and incompetency they decide to drag a fairly innocent person's name and reputation through the mud. Pathetic I tell you..

The personal discovery I'm not ready to delve into at this point.. Its still an extremely sore spot and I don't want to aggravate it any further.. Let's just say that I'm hanging on the ledge by my fingernails.. Its now only a matter of push, pull or letting go.

Bugger it all, i'm irritated... Too irritated to bloody continue..