Love? Bollocks..

What is love? Lord this is an age-old question. And one that nobody has come even close to being able to answer. I think I myself have discussed this topic like only a trillion times!

These two quotes are two of the most realistic ones i've found, none of that frou frou fluffy stuff:
"Attention is the most basic form of love; through it we bless and are blessed." - John Tarrant

"Love is more than three words mumbled before bedtime. Love is sustained by action, a pattern of devotion in the things we do for each other every day." - Nicholas Sparks

Love is doing something for your partner without being asked to.
Love is understanding.
Love is being accountable.
Love is bending over backwards because you can and trying your damndest when you can't.
Love is when simply being around your partner settles you the way nothing else can.
Love is putting your partner's needs before your own (though not necessarily all the time).
Love is when the object of your affections makes you feel special and good about yourself.
Love is when you are more yourself when with your partner that you are with anybody else.

It's depressing to find out how important or rather UN-important you are to your partner. To have him bend over backwards for everyone other than you. And for him to not understand how much his actions speak louder than his words. Add that to the fact that he's never told you straight up that he loves you, it weighs heavy, it really does.

Yes, granted sometimes in his actions or by the look he has in his eye, you can tell. But nothing should be taken for granted, and sometimes, *sigh* you just need to hear the words. Because saying I Love You is the strongest thing in the world, when said sincerely of course. It erases worries, it calms the soul and it gives you strength.

I know life isn't perfect. I know that even with the best of intentions, fifty percent of all marriages end in divorce. But... fifty percent don't.

Does this mean i want the fairy tale?

It means i want a chance at it.

Do I, after everything, believe in the happily ever after? Yes. Perhaps i no longer believe in a perfect love, or love at first sight, but do I still believe in lasting love? Yes again. I do believe that two people can be happy and make a great life together.

But what about the other fifty percent? Those are lousy statistics, only a fifty-fifty chance at survival. You'll end up hating each other, making each other's life miserable. But it doesn't have to be like that. What's to stop it? Hearts and flowers and grandiose declarations of undying love. Am i actually convinced by that?

I just want someone who loves me as honestly and as passionately as I love him..